All About Eva

My name is Evadne Cavell and I have an embarrassing secret.

I go to dark theaters and let anonymous men fondle me in the dark.

Why do I do this?

Because I’m the proverbial “good girl,” the youngest daughter of a prominent family.

Because I teach at a private Denver college and have to deal with a new administration  intent on taking the “liberal” out of liberal arts.

Because I need a way to vent my sexual frustration. Men aren’t interested in big, beautiful Black women like me—not out in the open anyway.

I have to stay in control. I lost control three years ago–in public–and live in fear of being exposed.

At the same time, I want to be an object—touched, petted, wanted—desired—but by my rules.

Then I meet Joshua Delaney, a graphic artist from Texas who has me breaking my rules faster than you can say“Ride me, cowboy!” Soon I’m doing things with him I’ve never done before.

We’re a good match. We both have secrets. But I’ve caught Joshua in one major lie already. Can I really trust him at all?

The pressure is building inside me and it’s making me reckless. I can’t go on like this forever.

How can I live and love my life when society feels entitled to shame and define me?

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