“All About Eva” is about me.
My name is Evadne Cavell and I have an embarrassing secret.
I go to dark theaters and let anonymous men fondle me in the dark.
Why do I do this?
Because I’m the proverbial “good girl,” the youngest daughter of a prominent family, and I happen to teach at a private Denver college intent on taking the “liberal” out of liberal arts.
Because I need a way to vent my sexual frustration. The men I encounter aren’t interested in a big, beautiful Black woman like me—not out in the open anyway.
But I have to stay in control. I lost control three years ago and live in fear of being exposed.
At the same time, I want to be an object—touched, petted, wanted—desired—but by my rules.
I can look and I can touch, but no names, no eye contact, and no talking.
Then I meet Joshua Delaney, a graphic artist from Texas who has me breaking my rules faster than a tornado levelling a trailer park and doing things I’ve never done before.
Can I live my life without shame when society feels entitled to define me?
Letting myself get manhandled in the dark is not smart or safe, and I’ve been lucky so far. But I don’t think I can keep this going for much longer.
I can trust you, right?
You are about to enter my world where I will tell you everything. You will know exactly what I think, exactly what I feel. You will know everything I have been going through.
You will find out…All About Eva.